Working Through the Pain

I am in a lot of pain, both physically and emotionally.  Going through a divorce is not easy.  Nobody ever told me it was, but the amount of heartbreak and hurt and tears was something that could never be explained beforehand.  I have good days and bad days and this week there have been more bad than good, unfortunately. 

After my first training session on Tuesday I was pretty sore, but I felt good.  Flash forward to Wednesday and I was in a lot more pain and that feel good feeling had left.  I could barely move my legs and even walking was no easy task.  I don't think I've ever been that sore, not even after my c-section!

Unfortunately, I let the emotional and physical obstacles derail me a little bit this week.  I'm so mad at myself for letting that happen, especially since it's only the first week.  I know I could have worked out longer and harder and more often, but I told myself that I needed a break because I couldn't move my legs.  I should have just sucked it up and worked through the pain, no matter how bad it was.  Also, due to all the emotional crap, I let myself wallow in self-pity and sadness and used that as an excuse not work out.  I did work out and I did monitor my eating, but I know I could have done more and that is disappointing.  If I get eliminated from the Biggest loser contest this week because of my mistakes, I will have nobody to blame but myself.  I hope I miraculously make it through and I know I will take this week and try to grow and learn from it.  There is no excuse good enough to not take care of myself and my needs.  I need to work out.  I need to eat right.  I need to do this and put 100% into it.  No ifs, ands, or buts. 

"Pain is just weakness leaving your body."  This will be my new mantra for next week.