Little Victories

I have been busy, busy, busy with working, school, taking care of my baby, and working out.  There was no weigh-in this past weekend for the Biggest Loser because it was a holiday weekend and although I splurged a bit on Friday evening (alcohol was my weakness that night) I continued to work out as if there was still a weigh in.

Losing this weight and changing my lifestyle is going to be a long process.  It has taken me years to put all of this weight on and it will take just as long to take it off.  That can seem slightly overwhelming, so I am trying to celebrate any small victories I have along the way so I can stay motivated. 

Yesterday I had to see my soon to be ex husband.  It was already a rainy, gray day which kind of put me in a mood so seeing him was the last thing I wanted to do.  I saw him for maybe 5 minutes total and it sent me into an emotional spiral.  I was sad and depressed and wallowing in self pity.  I had to run a few errands and went to Target.  While I was there, I noticed all of the Valentine's Day candy that had just been put out.  I spent about 20 minutes in the candy aisle arguing with myself about whether or not to get some candy.  On one hand, I was sad and all I wanted was chocolate to make myself feel better but on the other hand I knew I would just be more upset with myself if I ate that candy.  Eventually I pulled myself away from the candy and made myself go to the gym instead.  Once my mood lifted, I was so proud of the choice I made and I realized that the candy would not have fixed anything. 

I can't gaurentee that I will always be able to resistr temptations, in fact, I know there will be times when I give in.  But I am glad I am learning to recognize that outside factors like my mood do affect my eating in a negative way.  Being concious of the problem is half the battle, don't you think?